Love Letter for Myself

 Happy Valentine Day, Deb!

Wow, I didn't mean to celebrate Valentine this year. Just yesterday I forgot that today is Valentine Day. My friend and me talked in the car and we're about to buy a present to his friend when he state the fact that tomorrow is Valentine Day. 

I'm just like, "Oh tomorrow is Valentine Day? I totally forgot lol. That's why we talk about this present right? Your friend's birthday is on Valentine Day". 

I can't believe it slipped out of my mind. I'm shocked myself because how can I ever forget? I never forget Valentine Day before. Well, there always a first in everything I guess. 

To be truth, I kind of losing hope in marriage. I planed to give-up marriage. That's why I don't give a damn for Valentine Day. Who cares? Valentine Day is only for stupid couple in love. I'm not so it's okay if I'm just forget about Valentine Day. For a couple of months I was seriously thinking about being alone for the rest of my life. I'm not planning being celibate, but I kind of don't know what to hope anymore. I was like, "it is necessary to have hope so I can be marriage someday?"

Of course I still want a marriage. I do want kids, if you want to know. So bad. I don't like kids but it's a different story when they're my own children lol. But I don't want to hope anymore. If it's the best for me, I'm okay to live the rest of my life to fulfill God's plan for me. Alone. I'm started thinking to be alone on every Valentine Day. Not that it sound pathetic, lately I realized that being alone (single) is kinda fancy. Maybe this sounds selfish for me to say it but you know, for me marriage is forever selfless life, and I don't want it if it's not with the right person. When a woman decide to be married it's a different matter than a man who decide to be married. There's a LOT of things for woman to sacrifice when they decide to be a wife. My marriage definitely will follow Bible's rule and not some feminism agenda. Yes, I believe in a marriage's life where a woman become submissive to her husband. Not a slave but a submissive. Women priority when they're marriage is her family. Her husband. Her kids. And her part as a wife. 

I used to be alone for years and I think it's a pleasure life. I can do anything by myself. I can go anywhere, with anyone, and whenever I want. Marriage no longer a feels like a happy ending for me. Marriage is just a beginning. It's the beginning of submission life and sure, I'll have a lot to sacrifice. Is it worth it? 

And honestly I think marriage is tricky. It can be hell or it can be heaven on earth. It depends on yourself and the person you involved your relationship with. Nowadays, I doubt there's a right man out there for me. Not that I think so highly about myself and everyone is nothing compare to me, no not like that, but I used to be left behind. I used for people to give up on me. A loyal guy who wanna stick together through thin and thick with me? I think that kind of guy already sold out haha. Not that I'm thinking so lowly on myself either. I just tired with my own past heart-broken experience. Maybe it's just my traumatized side who's talking but I'm really tired. So, rather than spend the rest of my life in hell, I think not marriage is the best way. I can be happy alone for the rest of my life. I enjoyed my single life so far, so why I'm ruin it by marriage with the wrong person?

If  I tell myself 10 years ago that everything gonna go wrong with all my relationship, I would have a panic attack. Maybe I will drowned myself in the pit of sadness and tears. It'll scared the hell out of me. I will not have a life. But just like Amy Santiago said in Brooklyn Nine Nine season 5, life is unpredictable. Not everything is in our control. But as long as you with the right people, you can handle anything. 

Right people doesn't limited to spouse or boyfriend or husband. It can be anyone. Family. Friends. Bestfriends. Sisters.

In these two years I met a lot of great people. They're become very important in my life. My support system. They helped me grow and make me see the world in a better perspective. I learned a lot in my life because of them. They give me a love I never expect I will get. They give me attention I never know I needed. They make me realized that I can be very happy even when I'm single. I'm more happy now than when I'm in relationship. It's not that I'm not happy when I was dating in the past few years but the happiness I feel right now is priceless. For the first time in my life I feel so comfortable being myself. I'm an awkward person but I'm not insecure with that fact anymore. I'm not a people pleaser anymore. It's okay if people doesn't like me. I didn't need their acceptance to think I'm worth it. It's a beautiful feeling and I love it. I think every year I make progress. I always more thankful than ever. I'm still learning but I know I'm one step ahead. 

Yes, there was a time when I'm in despair. Sometimes I hate life. Hate my situation and my family. There's a stressful day and sometime I regret being alive. I would give-up everything and think that my life is suck. Just recently, I feel exactly that. Everything is useless. I can't get myself a boyfriend that my mom really hope and I feel like I failed her. My job is stuck. It's been two years since my salary didn't increase. No matter how hard I tried I'm not going anywhere. I hate those feeling. I'm trapped on my galauness. I'm jealous with anyone who happily married and have a successful business. We live in the same country, same city but why our life so different? I started to think that life is very unfair. And I hate it every second.

But God is very faithful. I know, deep down in my heart that I'm not okay. I convinced myself that everything okay. I'm good. Honestly, I'm not okay. There's a bitterness in my heart that I tried to ignore. Half-part of me is hella fine. But there's a half-part of me who's hella scared too. Forget about my saving, my back account sound like ka-ching every time I checked it. I still survive. But the pressure my mom give me about marriage started making me sick. I do want a relationship. But somehow, I'm reluctant to involved myself in a relationship. Like, I can't trust anyone to hold my heart. Every time I opened my heart, it become very scary and without realizing I back away slowly. Well, I know I'm not that bad (honestly there's no one who really take my breath away so maybe I'm just not in love with anyone) but there's really something going on with me. I have a very serious wound I tried to hide. God knows that. And he tried to fixed me. 

I always want myself to be stronger. Not such a fragile woman with emotions. So I pretend that I'm strong and cool. Who am I kidding tho? God knows everything about me so He tried to speak to me in a million way possible. He know I love reading love stories, He know I love watching movie, He know I love to listening love song, He know I'm a simp for beautiful words, He know I like to analyze ANYTHING that thought-provoking me (it can be A LOT of things), He know I love HOT guys, He know I love love, so He speak to me through all of that. He speak to me softly through heart-breaking movie (with a HOT actor and intriguing story), He know I have a things for movie with meaning. So He make me watched movie who I hate most (cause it make me feel things) and learned something from it. He give me a lot of things to think about through movies, love stories and songs. He even speak to me through infotainment news lol. 

What a way to reach me. But I love that. It's so me and He just know. He just spread out those provoking clue in my head. And I'm gladly collecting all the clues. It's a very fun game for me. This is my playground. He know me so well so I don't have a choice but to listen to Him. 

And this Valentine Day I heard Sidney Mohede newest single, Only You.

I know this song is for a couple. The lyrics is very sweet. Every word sounds like a poem and a wedding vow. But what I love the most from the song is the melody. It is so beautiful and so good it bring tears to my eyes. The voice, the lyrics, the "Andy Rianto" arrangement, and the movie video is a killer combination. It touched me deeply. The first time I heard it, I know this song will blessed lots of people. They already blessed me and warmed my heart so much. I believe it can do the other the same.

The message in the end of the movie video is a word "Don't give up". With black background. It's very simple. Not as sweet as the stories in the whole video but the only matter for me is that word. The word means the world to me. It's a like an answer to all of my soreness. 

I'm about to give-up on marriage. I seriously do. I just planned to tell it to my parent and make them understand my decision. But I can't put it into words. I don't know what to say to them until I saw the video. There's a part on the video when the female lead said "I don't dare to hope". I can relate to that in so many level. Maybe our context is very different but it's basically the same. Tomato Potato. That's why the word "Don't give up" HIT me so hard. I think the message is very personal for me. I believe that's what God tried to tell me all this time. 

I'm crying so hard and very thankful I'm alone in my room tonight lol.

For me the message of this song is to never give-up on myself. I think I'm already overcome my broken-hearted phase and see relationship in a better perspective. But no, there's a lot of baggage I need to put down. Honestly I'm just afraid. I'm afraid to hurt. I'm afraid to be alone for the rest of my life. I'm afraid I never experience a true love in my life. I'm afraid people leave me again. I'm afraid I never found the right one for me. I'm afraid I'm not the one in control on my life anymore. Actually, I don't have to. I don't need to be afraid. Not everything in my control. I just need Him to be a God in my life. I can't let my past determine my future. Not everyone have a crappy relationship. Those who still believe in commitment and hard work in relationship is still exist. Me. I can start it with myself first.

This month is like a journey for me. I never meant to celebrate Valentine Day cause I'm single. 

But Valentine is not only about love between couple. It's a love day. It's the love itself that we need to celebrate. Through this emotional ride of days, God tried to told me that. Keep believe in Him. Don't lose hope.

He gave me a revelation about Love. His love for me is endless and I can drown in His love forever. Anytime. Anywhere. He gave me the chance to see myself in better shape. He let me battling my own emotions and guiding me through and through. He let me know what kind of emotion I have and deal with it. He told me to keep moving on, one step at a time, even it's very hard, it'll be worth it in the end. He make me feels His love even when I failed myself. He talked to me in a way that only me can understand. He tried to reached me every time I'm running away from Him, myself and my negative emotions. He told me to let go the wheel and let Him in control. He's the anchor when I'm hopeless.

An the most important thing was He never give up on me. 

I think this phase is important for me. Before I can state the word "I love you" for the love of my life, I need to feel it first. I need to feel loved so I can love another. I need to madly deeply in love with The Love itself so I can give it to someone else. I need to throw out this baggage on my back and freed myself from the past trauma I never realized I have. I read lot of message today that said to prepare myself to be a great partner. Love doesn't come when you wanted it. It comes to you when you ready. With the up and down emotions I feel right now, I still need time to readiness myself. 

Thanks God for this lovely Valentine Day. I'm alone yet I feel so loved all day. With surprise gift from my bestfriend and this secret moment in my heart, I'm happy it all happened on Valentine Day.  

I believe, someday He will give meaning to a word of LOVE that I adored so much. 

Review Buku : Percy Jackson and The Olympians : "The Titan Curse"

Pengarang: Rick Riordan

Tahun Terbit: 2007

Penerbit: Mizan fantasi

Genre: Fantasy, Fiction, Adventure

Negara: USA

Pages: 367 Halaman

Rating : 4/5

Sinopsis dari Cover Belakang:

Bahaya yang datang tak berhenti hingga di situ. Sesosok monster purba yang telah punah hingga ribuan tahun kini bangkit—monster yang dikabarkan sebagai pembawa kiamat bagi dewa-dewi Olympus. Dan Artemis, satu-satunya dewi yang tahu cara melacaknya, tengah menghilang tanpa jejak. Kini, Percy dan teman-temannya, bersama dengan para Pemburu Artemis, hanya memiliki waktu satu minggu untuk mencari dewi yang diculik dan memecahkan misteri monster yang tengah diburu. Percy dan kawan-kawan pun mengawali misi ini dengan dibayangi oleh tantangan paling berbahaya yang pernah mereka hadapi: ramalan mengerikan sang Oracle mengenai kutukan bangsa Titan. Siapa yang akan menghilang di dataran tanpa hujan? Dan siapa yang akan binasa di tangan salah satu orangtuanya?

MY REVIEW:

Percy punya teman baru, Thalia Grace. Sounds familiar? Yeah, dia adalah Thalia dari Thalia's Tree yang pohon-nya mati-matian Percy selamatkan dari keracunan yang disebabkan oleh Luke musim panas lalu. The Golden Fleece yang berhasil mereka dapatkan kelewat ampuh, tidak hanya menyembuhkan pohon, Bulu Domba Emas itu menghidupkan Thalia sekaligus. Latar belakang kenapa Thalia jadi pohon? Ga usah dijelaskan ulang lah ya, baca aja The Sea of Monster :p 

Yang pasti sekarang ia anggota baru dari keluarga Percy di Perkemahan Blasteran. Dia juga anak dari 3 Dewa Besar Olympus, bahkan ia anak dari Dewa utama yaitu Zeus. Kali ini bukan Percy saja yang bisa menggenapi ramalan besar. Thalia merupakan pion baru dalam permainan takdir. Bahkan ia lebih mendekati umur 16 dibanding Percy yang masih 13 tahun. Bisa saja kegenapan ramalan itu akan terjadi sekarang, ya kan?

Review Buku : The Silkworm by Robert Galbraith

Pengarang: Robert Galbraith
Tahun Terbit: 2014
Penerbit: Gramedia Pustaka Utama
Genre: Mystery, Thriller, Detective
Negara: London, England (United Kingdom)
Pages: 540 pages

Rating : 4/5

Sinopsis dari Cover Belakang:

Seorang novelis bernama Owen Quine menghilang. Sang istri mengira suaminya hanya pergi tanpa pamit selama beberapa hari —seperti yang sering dia lakukan sebelumnya lalu meminta Cormoran Strike untuk menemukan dan membawanya pulang.

Namun, ketika Strike memulai penyelidikan, dia mendapati bahwa perihal menghilangnya Quine tidak sesederhana yang disangka istrinya. Novelis itu baru saja menyelesaikan naskah yang menghujat orang banyak. Yang berarti ada banyak orang yang ingin Quine dilenyapkan.

Kemudian mayat Quine ditemukan dalam kondisi ganjil dengan bukti-bukti telah dibunuh secara brutal. Kali ini Strike berhadapan dengan pembunuh keji, yang mendedikasikan waktu dan pikiran untuk merancang pembunuhan yang biadab tak terkira.

“You can’t plot murder like a novel. There are always loose ends in real life.” 

Review Buku : Antalogi Rasa By Ika Natassa

Pengarang: Ika Natassa

Tahun Terbit: 2011

Penerbit: Gramedia Pustaka Utama

Genre: Romance

Negara: Indonesia

Pages: 344 pages

Rating : 4/5

Sinopsis dari Cover Belakang:

Tiga sahabat. Satu pertanyaan. What if in the person that you love, you find a best friend instead of a lover?

K e a r a

Were both just people who worry about the breaths we take, not how we breathe.

How can we be so different and feel so much alike, Rul?

Dan malam ini, tiga tahun setelah malam yang membuatku jatuh cinta, my dear, dan aku di sini terbaring menatap bintang-bintang di langit pekat Singapura ini, aku masih cinta, Rul. Dan kamu mungkin tidak akan pernah tahu.

Three years of my wasted life loving you.

R u l y

Yang tidak gue ceritakan ke Keara adalah bahwa sampai sekarang gue merasa mungkin satu-satunya momen yang bisa mengalahkan senangnya dan leganya gue subuh itu adalah kalau suatu hari nanti gue masuk ke ruangan rumah sakit seperti ini dan Denise sedang menggendong bayi kami yang baru dia lahirkan. Yang tidak gue ceritakan ke Keara adalah rasa hangat yang terasa di dada gue waktu suster membangunkan gue subuh itu dan berkata, "Pak, istrinya sudah sadar," dan bahwa gue bahkan tidak sedikit pun berniat mengoreksi pernyataan itu. Mimpi aja terus, Rul.

H a r r i s

Senang definisi gue: elo tertawa lepas. Senang definisi elo? Mungkin gue nggak akan pernah tahu. Karena setiap gue mencoba melakukan hal-hal manis yang gue lakukan dengan perempuan-perempuan lain yang sepanjang sejarah tidak pernah gagal membuat mereka klepek-klepek, ucapan yang harus gue dengar hanya, "Harris darling, udah deh, nggak usah sok manis. Go back being the chauvinistic jerk that I love."

Thats probably as close as I can get to hearing that she loves me.

MY REVIEW:

So here I am... stuck between dream and reality. Again. Tebak karena apa? Apalagi kalo bukan side effect dari tokoh pria yang cuma ada di novel Ika Natassa. Again. Hahahaha. Damn! Kaya Ale itu belum cukup dan sekarang aku harus ketemu Harris! My God!!

Review Buku : Finding Audrey by Sophie Kinsella

Author: Sophie Kinsella
Originally Published: 2015
Publisher: Gramedia Pustaka Utama
Genre: Young Adult
Country: United Kingdom
Pages: 364 pages
Rating : 4/5

Sinopsis dari Cover Belakang:

Audrey menderita gangguan kecemasan. Masalah psikologis ini sampai menganggu kehidupan sehari-hari gadis berusia 14 tahun itu. Kemajuan konsultasinya dengan Dr. Sarah pun berjalan perlahan.

Namun, ketika bertemu Linus, teman abangnya, Audrey jadi bersemangat. Ia merasa nyambung dengan cowok itu, bisa bercerita tentang berbagai ketakutan yang dirasakannya.

Saat persahabatan mereka semakin erat dan kesembuhannya semakin nyata, hubungan romantis yang manis terjalin di antara mereka. Hubungan yang bukan Cuma menolong Audrey tapi juga seluruh keluarganya.

MY REVIEW:

Audrey Turner adalah remaja 14 tahun yang menjadi korban bullying dan terpaksa menghabiskan hidupnya di dalam rumah —karena ia menderita gangguan kecemasan berlebihan bila bertemu dengan orang lain maupun berada di tempat ramai. Ia selalu menggunakan kacamata hitam tanpa sanggup melepasnya. Meskipun itu di dalam rumah ataupun saat-saat ia terpaksa harus keluar rumah untuk berobat. Ia tidak mampu menatap mata orang lain semenjak kejadian bullying yang dialaminya, meskipun itu mata kedua orangtuanya sendiri sekalipun. Hanya mata Felix —adik Audrey yang berumur 4 tahun, yang sanggup Audrey tatap tanpa menggunakan kacamata hitamnya. 

Book Review: Girls in The Dark by Akiyoshi Rikako

Original Title: Ankoku Joshi
Author: Akiyoshi Rikako
Originally Published: 2013
Publisher: Penerbit Haru
Genre: Mystery
Country: Japan
Pages: 298 pages
Rating : 4/5

Sinopsis dari Cover Belakang:

Apa yang ingin disampaikan gadis itu?

Gadis itu mati.

Ketua klub sastra, Shiraishi Itsumi, mati. Di tangannya ada setangkai bunga lily.

Pembunuhan? Bunuh diri? Tidak ada yang tahu.

Satu dari enam gadis anggota klub Sastra digosipkan sebagai pembunuh gadis cantik berkarisma itu.

Seminggu sesudahnya, Klub Sastra mengadakan pertemuan. Mereka ingin mengenang mantan ketua mereka dengan sebuah cerita pendek. Namun ternyata, cerita pendek yang mereka buat adalah analisis masing-masing tentang siapa pembunuh yang sebenarnya. Keenam gadis itu bergantian membaca analisis mereka, tapi…

Kau pernah berpikir ingin membunuh seseorang?

MY REVIEW:

“Apa kalian tidak merasakan bahwa panca indera kita semakin terasah kalau kita berada dalam kegelapan? Cobalah untuk beraktivitas seperti biasanya dengan merenggut sebuah benda yang selalu ada, bernama cahaya. Kau akan bisa merasakan cita rasa baru dari aktivitas yang biasa itu. Sangatlah penting bagi orang-orang yang mendalami sastra untuk tidak terlalu mengandalkan indra penglihat”

Klub Sastra SMA Putri Santa Maria mengadakan pertemuan rutin ke-16, seminggu setelah kematian mantan Ketua klub mereka, Shiraishi Itsumi. Pertemuan ini merupakan pertemuan wajib yang memang diadakan setahun sekali yaitu pada akhir semester sebelum memasuki masa liburan. Pertemuan kali ini begitu spesial karena seminggu sebelumnya terjadi perisitiwa mengejutkan juga menyedihkan bagi klub mereka, kematian Shiraishi Itsumi. Tidak ada yang tahu alasan dia meninggal. Bahkan orangtua dan adiknya tidak ada yang mau membuka mulut perihal kematiannya. Yang mereka tahu Shiraishi Itsumi meninggal dalam keadaan mengenaskan, tergeletak dalam genangan darahnya sendiri.

My Books

The Next Book Review

Due to several reasons I announced that my review will come late than I expected :(

First, Inferno is really not my type of book. I need very very very long time to finish it. Even know it's almost done but unfortunately I got eye disorders. So my family prohibit reading books and there's nothing I can do until my eyes improved..

(This is nonsense ―all those bullshit― like anyone would care hahahaha)

Intinya saya sedang jenuh tingkat dewa karena ga bisa nulis. Ini lucu hahahha. Biasa-nya aku muak dan bosan setengah mati karena harus sering meng-update blog ―yang tidak ada apa-apanya― ini dan sibuk mencari referensi untuk mendukung review yang aku tulis. Sekarang setelah berminggu-minggu aku tidak menulis review satu pun mengenai buku yang aku baca ―padahal buku-buku yang siap di review sudah menggunung di rumah― aku merasa hampa. Hidup ini tidak berarti dan kosong (ehem..aku lebay!). 

Jadi daripada rasa jenuhku ini tidak bisa terlampiaskan, maka aku menulis hal tidak penting lain untuk dibaca ―kalau ada yang baca― di blog ini: BUKU-BUKU yang akan ku-review! 

I have many books in my bookshelf. Banyak banget yang masih belum dibuka plastiknya. Rapi tersusun berdasar urutan beli. Kira-kira ada 10 buku lebih yang ada di rumah dan belum sempat aku baca sampai hari ini. Herannya meskipun hutang baca ku masih banyak tapi aku ga bisa berhenti beli buku baru. Hufftt... mungkin ini yang disebut "Rakus"

Book Review: Fracture Me by Tahereh Mafi

Author: Tahereh Mafi

Genre: Dystopia, Young-adult fiction

Followed by: Ignite Me

Preceded By : Unravel Me Me

Country: United States of America

Rating : 4/5

Sinopsis dari Cover Belakang:

In this electrifying sixty-page companion novella to the New York Times bestselling Shatter Me series, discover the fate of the Omega Point rebels as they go up against The Reestablishment. Set during and soon after the final moments of Unravel Me, Fracture Me is told from Adam's perspective.

As Omega Point prepares to launch an all-out assault on The Reestablishment soldiers stationed in Sector 45, Adam's focus couldn't be further from the upcoming battle. He's reeling from his breakup with Juliette, scared for his best friend's life, and as concerned as ever for his brother James's safety. And just as Adam begins to wonder if this life is really for him, the alarms sound. It's time for war.

On the battlefield, it seems like the odds are in their favor—but taking down Warner, Adam's newly discovered half brother, won't be that easy. The Reestablishment can't tolerate a rebellion, and they'll do anything to crush the resistance . . . including killing everyone Adam has ever cared about.

Fracture Me sets the stage for Ignite Me, the explosive finale in Tahereh Mafi's epic dystopian series. It's a novella not to be missed by fans who crave action-packed stories with tantalizing romance like Divergent by Veronica Roth, The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins, and Legend by Marie Lu.

MY REVIEW:

Perang dengan Tatanan Baru akan segera dimulai. Peperangan yang sesungguhnya. Tapi malam sebelum hari peperangan keadaan menjadi kacau. Kenji harus dibawa ke tempat Sonya dan Sara untuk disembuhkan. Adam melihat dampak dari kekuatan Juliette yang sesungguhnya. Kekuatannya yang menghancurkan. Hanya berada dalam jarak sedekat itu saja dengan Juliette, Kenji hampir binasa. Walaupun Adam yakin bahwa salah Juliette-lah Kenji tumbang dan sekarat, namun Adam tidak tega mengatakan itu langsung di depan Kenji maupun Juliette. Sebaliknya ia malah membela Juliette, karena memang Juliette tidak menyentuh Kenji sama sekali. Saat itu Adam tidak tahu kalau Warner bisa mengambil kekuatan Juliette dan menggunakannya secara tidak sengaja ke Kenji, sehingga ia yakin bahwa salah Juliette lah Kenji terluka. Dan Adam, mulai merasa takut pada Juliette dan kekuatannya.

Book review: Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi

Author: Tahereh Mafi
Genre: Young-adult fiction
Followed by: Unravel Me
Country: United States of America
Rating : 4 /5







Sinopsis dari cover belakang :

Negara melihat betapa menguntungkan betapa berbahayanya aku, dan mereka pun memutuskan untuk menyekapku di sebuah penjaramenjauhkanku dari manusia normal. Mereka ingin menjadikanku senjata pemusnah menciptakan kedamaian yang sempurna di dunia ini.
Datanglah Adam. Tampan, memikat, memesona, baik hati. Di matanya, aku cantik aku tidak berbahaya. Lalu, kami pun bersekongkol berdiskusi. Adam akan membantuku keluar dari kurungan pengasingan ini, dan kami akan hidup bahagia nun jauh di sana. Itu janjinya.
Tapi, apakah dia bisa menepatinya? Tidakkah dia sadar bahwa suatu saat nanti aku bisa saja mengubah dan menghancurkannya menjadi serpihan abu?

MY REVIEW:

Juliette Ferarrs dikurung di Rumah Sakit Jiwa selama 264 hari. Selama dikurung dia tidak pernah bertemu siapapun, berbicara dengan siapapun, dan hanya duduk diam di dalam sel-nya sambil menatap keluar jendela. Dalam kurun waktu selama itu, untungnya dia tidak menjadi gila. Juliette tetap waras, walaupun pasien lainnya berteriak-teriak akibat kegilaan mereka dikurung secara keji di sana. Ia tidak berusaha keluar, karena ia menyadari ia berbahaya. Berbahaya untuk orang lain. Tidak ada tempat yang dituju bila ia keluar, karena ia ditakuti masyarakat, bahkan orangtuanya sendiri membuangnya karena kemampuan yang dimilikinya. Ia hanya berusaha bertahan untuk tidak gila selama dikurung di rumah sakit jiwa. Dan itu membuat usahanya untuk tidak menyakiti siapapun sedikit ringan karena ia selalu sendirian.

Book Review: Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

Author: Rainbow Rowell
Original language: English
Genre: Young-adult fiction
Rating : 4/5








Sinopsis dari Cover Belakang:

Cath dan Wren—saudari kembarnya—adalah penggemar Simon Snow. Oke, seluruh dunia adalah penggemar Simon Snow, novel berseri tentang dunia penyihir itu. Namun, Cath bukan sekadar fan. Simon Snow adalah hidupnya!

Cath bahkan menulis fanfiksi tentang Simon Snow menggunakan nama pena Magicath di Internet, dan ia terkenal! Semua orang menanti-nantikan fanfiksi Cath.

Semuanya terasa indah bagi Cath, sampai ia menginjakkan kaki ke universitas. Tiba-tiba saja, Wren tidak mau tahu lagi tentang Simon Snow, bahkan tak ingin menjadi teman sekamarnya! Dicampakkan Wren, dunia Cath jadi jungkir balik. Sendirian, ia harus menghadapi teman sekamar eksentrik yang selalu membawa pacarnya ke kamar, teman sekelas yang mengusik hatinya, juga profesor Penulisan Fiksi yang menganggap fanfiksi adalah tanda akhir zaman.

Seolah dunianya belum cukup terguncang, Cath juga masih harus mengkhawatirkan kondisi psikis ayahnya yang labil. Sekarang, pertanyaan buat Cath adalah: mampukah ia menghadapi semua ini?

MY REVIEW:

Cath adalah remaja kutubuku yang memiliki saudara kembar identik bernama Wren. Mereka berdua sama-sama menyukai Simon Snow, novel berseri tentang dunia sihir. Bahkan Cath dan Wren rajin menulis fan fiksi versi mereka sendiri mengenai Simon Snow dengan nama pena Magicath dan Wrenegade di website Fanfixx.net, salah satu website fan fiksi paling digandrungi dan paling besar di negara mereka. Cath pikir tidak akan ada yang berubah ketika dia dan Wren akhirnya akan masuk ke universitas. Cath berencana terus menulis fan fiksi mengani Simon Snow bersama dengan Wren dan berbagi kamar di asrama saat kuliah. Namun Cath harus kecewa setengah mati ketika mengetahui bahwa Wren berubah.